A breather from mediocrity.
From truth to delirium to truth.

Monday, 29 October 2012

Mind vs Heart


This blog post will mark the importance of ‘prompts’. A term and an idea I recently became familiar with though every writing is very much the consequence of this defining nano-second phenomenon called PROMPTS. For me these days, it has been a blog from the cutest buddy who is so proud of the loudest laughter that makes her contemporaries (myself included) extremely unsure about our own laughter cadences. Whenever I land on her piece I feel like overcoming all the occult inertia and start pushing my pen(metaphorically,as its more like pushing keys than pen, on laptop)



Thinking of which, its been ages that I have picked up pen to write anything randomly. I write my journal. "No. Its not a diary. It’s really a journal" (read with more emphasis than wimpy's claim) 
Diary records your life’s events-down to almost minute to minute and day to day occurrences. My brain is pretty great at recording all the pleasant and unpleasant events including the outright unnecessary ones to require to record my life in writing. Plus since I myself belong to a vehement albeit not proud bone-idle breed, my fingers demand the better of me to convince them to move.
On that note, I am suddenly glad that our body parts were not made autonomous .Our heart and brain ARE pretty much autonomous and to date have been playing havoc in more lives of people like me than not. They hardly sync!

When my heart wants to sleep only 5 minutes in excess, my mind commands to get up and make a sprint to shower to save another day from jitter-laden late start. When my heart wants to compliment someone, my brain tells me to just allow a subtle smile to that person to make his day. It tells me WELL YOU DON’T NEED TO ACT TOO SWEET ..TOO NAIVE..

Then again when in the middle of night (my middle of night is 3 to 4 AMish..scary timings I know) my brain begins to run and gallop so fiercely that my heart tells me to jump off the bed or it will break through the rib cage and go about sowing my gigantic thoughts all by itself. My heart starts racing as a cue to what its yearning with all its desire.It starts urging me to begin, get up, seize the moment. Even if somebody gets struck by a thud of heart attack in the event of watching me sitting up straight in the darkness on my laptop or playing guitar full volume in the next  room or emptying my book shelf to get my hands on that one book that has the seedlings to the brainchild of a mega project. It tells me to be THAT RIDICULOUS. That’s when my calm mind begins to tug at the rope of my next move. It tells me to first shut the crap up. Second it tells me to try to sleep and baths me expertly in a loud embarrassment of being awake this late. It begins with a mild whisper that becomes louder in my head and more stern as I begin to heed it. It tells me to imagine what kind of a mess I will be in the university  next day.It will move on to remind me how  I will have to spend the entire day with sunken panda-normous eyes with volatile attention span and my most dreaded apathetic blank face.

Flip side 

Whenever I have given in to my heart, I have never had to shed a single second in regret. The other day almost always suffered but I did not so badly in the aftermath. When I followed my brain,I just helped myself spending another day of a mediocre life

(More on mediocrity soon)

Sunday, 28 October 2012

Think-blob


A powerhouse of speculations that drive you to insanity..
but when you pause and absorb..
listen and purr..
you grow..


Universe talks and life tells you when it unfolds like that. 
Future is what you feared it to be or what you decided it to be. 
Be decisive
You are universe and universe is you

Don't fight it

Monday, 28 November 2011

Upside to Alarm

We are all human beings..
And when we make mistakes and still work to reverse it somehow by keep moving and raving all the mental engines to figure out some way out of a dense custard thick mess..
Then is when our entire abilities are duely tested..
More prerequisite to sheer planning and patience and energy is SHEER OPTIMISM  almost little short of blind optimism..of a kind that world self help books warn us about.
Yes we might not arrive at the source of light through that tunnel but a blind unwavering faith laced with a flavour of madness that "a liitle more and we will be there" indeed of all the things keep us going..keep us from sinking into the dismality of dejecting reality!!
FOR SURE THEN THE TIDE OF OUR TIME would want to come along for the ride..OUR WAY!!

We as much as it holds true for all creatures, cant compromise on holding on our hopes..because the stretch of the arms of surrender is terrifying, mottled, ugly, and pulling!It has life and it evolves..evolves to pick at every sparkle from the canvas of all dimensions of life!!

Hope allows us to visualize through the toughest of problems. It lets us get started and no matter how roughened the road we find or how sluggish we make our gait (imagine ataxia) Hope evolves..and with hope our scheme evolves..

In the end if we go on with the same positive drive as when intrinsic Hope was born..we will if anything land on our feet..But NEVER BELOW IT

Life fuller

The best attitude is when you can comfortably expect nothing from someone and everything from yourself.Even better is when you provide and try and live up to expectations from your being...however tall unreachable and tough these are...When then nothing in around can bring you down as you have empowered only yourself to kill or save yourself..you become so consumed about being at your best..satisfying, pushing your limits and discovering, pulling your strings in every angle to beat the best out of yourself, your time, your being,your resources, your reserves,your ideas,your visions, your knowledge that no energy remains to look around to loiter and dwell at trivialities of time!
Successful people expect everything from themselves and seldom from others !

Saturday, 20 August 2011

Big of tiny

My medical university is beyond awesome! Two days ahead from now i am apparently sitting my quarter semester exams called infamously the Modules followed by 2nd part a day later and OSPI(viva voce and spotting) just 24 hours later than the latter.. 
However this detail has no relevance to what has actually prompted me to enjoy the feeling that has washed me down.I read a text from a girl in my batch who i have at best exchanged a nanosecond smile while exiting daily university clasp.Name apart, I know nothing beyond it about her!Yet the text bears no friendship quote,no promises to stay together till the end,no joke of yaara yari and no trace of what I want from you as a friend and what I value in you as a friend.This text bears nothing conventional.Just a valuable something that surpasses all expressions of honesty and perhaps more..A precise priceless guess list of pathology topics due to be part of my upcoming module exams